This study journeys my experience of discovering the hidden, unknown, and unconscious parts of self through the use of a literary book “The Monster Calls”. This was done through the use of heuristic methodology and methods. Findings included a mapping out of my processes related to early and recent losses, experiencing and re-experiencing, grief, fear, fury, adaptation, and connection; learning and bringing into consciousness the various building blocks that unconsciously construct different parts of my self and my internalised biasness; and further developing the sense of consciously noticing, sensing, observing, and moving in and out of different states. Further research and gains for psychotherapy are discussed alongside strengths and limitations of this study.